Reactivation
My twin brother receives weekly Reiki sessions from me. Every Tuesday we separate for our evening routines and come back together for an end-of-night healing session. He’s reported that it helps him sleep better, eases him into the following day, and remains with him throughout the week. It helps me too because I get to continue practicing the work I love, contribute to the healing of someone I love, and stay on the path I’m creating for myself.
But the last few weeks I haven’t been giving him sessions.
Admittedly, I fell off of my horse. I had a distant session that didn’t quite satisfy my own expectations. The recipient had no complaints and even said he’d be back for more, but something about his session didn’t feel right for me.
What wasn’t right about it was that I thought about it too much afterward. I was overanalyzing every little part of the session. I had an idea of how it should have been, which prevented me from accepting it as it was.
As a result, I stopped practicing daily and told my brother that I didn’t want to give him a session until I felt connected to the energy again.
News flash: the connection doesn’t come back when you’re the one causing the block.
I let myself fall into thought patterns surrounded by fear. I let myself believe there was an external force creating a blockage that I was really creating within myself. I was afraid to fail. So instead of continuing to practice, grow, and contribute to healing, I closed myself off. I stopped altogether.
Luckily, my brother, like always, was there to support me. We were walking the dogs before the end of the night when he asked me if we were going to do a session before bed. I gave him my usual excuse; that if he wants it I’ll do it, but I’m not feeling the energetic connection and don’t want to give him a false session.
His response moved me. He asked me who better to practice on when the connection may not be there than my own brother, someone I can trust entirely and freely fail in front of. He then went on to ask me what I’m going to do when the day comes that I’m fully booked for sessions and I don’t feel it.
I rushed back to my room after that walk and went straight to my journal.
The floodgates opened and I acknowledged where the disconnection was coming from - myself.
Once I was done journaling I sat with myself. I meditated. I prayed. I called in the energy, invited it to find a home within me once more, and I leaned into gratitude for the reactivation I was experiencing.
Then I went to my brother’s room.
There was immediate heat. There was immediate healing. There was a deep connection between us.
I’m grateful that my twin brother not only invites me to practice with him but encourages me to stay the course as well. It’s important to have those people in your inner circle, the ones that know you so well that they won’t let you wear a mask. The ones that contribute to your healing just as much as you contribute to theirs, or more.
